Well I just asked for the afternoon and the day off tomorrow as I'm just a total mess. I'm hoping to get away from the house with the kids and drive to our cottage. When I got home, AH was home for lunch, wondered why I was home. I told him I couldn't function at work and took a sick leave; told him I have to do something as I'm making myself sick. He genuinely looked hurt seeing me like this, but I know it won't make him stop; he's seen me like this before. I started questioning our therapy session we had yesterday and the lies about hiding alcohol (again!)...what gets to me is that he just stares at me, and doesn't say a thing; then he put his shoes on and left for work, looking shaken...it's such a scary look, like a caged animal, I don't know, maybe I'm imagining things....All I know is I'm a mess, I can't focus, I can't keep going like this, I know I need to get to Al-Anon but right now all I want to do is curl up in a dark corner and forget about everything...