I went to the counselor today and started that process. I think it was helpful, we'll just have to wait and see. She actually referred me to an addiction counselor. If I feel comfortable with her, maybe I can talk about it. I mean, just because they are a counselor doesn't mean they want to hear the worst things you've ever done, ha. But I guess that's what they're there for , to help you sort that out. Thanks again for the replies