I am taking antabuse this time around. I have a habit of throwing in the towel. I will get a few weeks of sobriety and then my AV is there screaming that since you don't have much time, you can just start over.
I have started over too many times and this time I don't want to. I am using it as a crutch right because I have pulled into liquor stores on the spur of the moment. I need to use it get me to the point that NOT drinking becomes a habit.
I also attend AA, have a sponsor and am calling friends in the program. I am determined to stay sober with whatever will help me.
Today is day 50 and this is the longest amount of continuous sobriety since 2011 when I first tried to quit.