Greg I just joined sober recovery today. Reading the post when I first got sober 119 days ago helped me so much I wanted to join and be part of the community.
I had been sober just under 12 years, years ago. Like someone else wrote on another thread today I just did not even care about my sobriety so I stopped doing what needs to be done to have. I guess just took it for granted. Well fast forward 16 years later and I am getting sober again. It is a matter of life or death for me.
On march 18, 2013 I returned to AA and picked up my white chip of surrender. I know I tried controlled drinking at my house alone for the past 2 years but in the end just couldn't stop. I am so glad to be back and working a program because like you I get depressed. Well now that I am 119 days sober that is getting much better. I think most people with drinking problems have depression problems caused by alcohol.
I wish you well brother and hope all goes good.