@Kitty: That's what I've also thought: I need to find more meaningful things to fill my Saturdays that I can get to. Sometimes, a friend has visited, and we go hiking, maybe once a month, he comes though town. But I need to look into stuff I can do that's nearby, poetry, maybe hiking if I can get a ride outta the city. Something. I like bowling.
** Thats great !! It sounds like you really are on your way to realizing the problem and you already have the answers. Make sure that you do reach out to your friends and make dates when you feel you need some comfort and friendship in your life
