Welcome to SR Hagrid
I never used antabuse, the people I was seeing for recovery thought it was a bit barbaric and preferred campral instead. But I guess antabuse really does stop you from drinking whereas campral is just supposed to reduce cravings. I think whatever medication you use though it is necessary to do some work on the mental side of addiction. Have you ever tried to get help on that side? Maybe an AA or SMART meeting, or something like AVRT? x