" If I can't be honest, I'll never sustain recovery." Oh so true! Not being honest with ourselves and denial are our biggest enemies in the beginning. I needed to immerse myself in meetings to get a semblance of being sober. I fortunately kept coming back and was scared when someone said the come back passes are not forever and bad things happen each time we slip. Hang on as the ride can be wonderful once some sobriety catches on. BE WELL