Feeling Bad
Feeling bad about how we tell someone, or multiple people, our whole life story and then they just abandon us. I mean, I get that they are not to save us, and I feel like the relationship was insincere. I just cannot seem to get over what I feel is abandonment by a sponsor from AA aka human being.
It just makes me feel so reluctant to trust anyone, and I am feeling like going back to AA and finding a sponsor that knows nothing about me to help me.
I guess there are no guarantees as to the outcome, and I wanted to share my fear.
Thanks for letting me share.
It perplexes me that so many women threw me away.
It hurts me deeply. Did they ever really care? I did. I still do, and I bet they laugh at me.
I understand that the abandonment is a result of "choices"? I made, and some say she just chose to not be like us, so we dropped her...and maybe it's not choice...maybe I'm powerless...maybe all these women got well, and I'm still struggling..and they all think I just want to drink.
I guess I am just feeling alone, and I know my life is a result of choices I made, but it still hurts.