The hardest part of this to rectify in my head was that they NEVER explained to me WHY her heart stopped the first time. They just labeled her as SIDS, Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Which means NOTHING. It means that cant explain why her heart stopped. She was a full term rolly polly beautiful baby. They tried to tell me afterwards that if it was hooked up wrong then it would have gone off................. THEN WHY DIDNT IT ???? If you are a parent and they tell you to do "this" to save your child then you DO IT !!! And I swear I did !! I loved her so much !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I have lived with this guilt for the past 28 years.... Its hard to survive when you bury your own child, its a HELL Of alot harder if you feel responcible