But I have an alcohol problem, and the thought of never having a drink ever again at this moment in time fills me with nothing but negativity and anxiety
I had those thoughts too - so I kept drinking, I lost everything I cared about, and I nearly killed myself.
when I stopped I still couldn't handle the idea of forever...but one day at a time seemed more achievable to me, a commitment I renewed every day.
same journey but a different route.
I'm sure that many new folks here find the idea of never again confronting, but honestly....I can't in all conscience recommend anything else, raspberry...I wouldn't be doing you any favours at all.
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