"However, I can't get this question out of my head: what kind of a choice am I making for myself, by knowingly marrying an alcoholic man? It haunts me every day." (parallel)
^^^^^^^^^^
This my friend, is your gut instinct at work.
It would serve you well to listen to your inner voice.
Hope you continue to educate yourself about addiction. Best to know all the facts before you commit yourself to a life with an active addict.
Have to agree with Lexie, go take care of YOU, and complete your education.
Secure your future.
You are going to need to be very self sustaining if you choose to live your life with an active addict.
His current attempt at sobriety is nothing more than a band-aid, this horrible disease will not evaporate without his commitment to recovery. Currently his actions are saying, he simply is not ready to commit to recovery.
Ask yourself this question, if today, is as good as it ever will be, is that an acceptable life?
The actual percentage of people that recover is low, very low, here to say I gambled and lost, and it's been a painful journey to reclaim my life.
And it sounds like an amazing life awaits you!