Thank you so much for all your replies. I expected some sense and wisdom from my fellow SR members and the responses have been so helpful.
Least- the answer to your very obvious point about what would be different about future attempts to control my drinking is - nothing. Something you figured out before me.
Doggonecarl- succinctly put and very memorable. I have a- problem.
Still working on it. Good to have you guys working along side me.