maybe I will give it a try. All I know is with each "fall off the wagon" my drinking and my life and getting more out of control. I have never driven drunk before, but did last week, thankfully I didn't kill anyone. I think I banged into a light pole. This site is great and when I was sober I looked forward to ready peoples encouragement and stories, but my AV took over and it was over. So back on the wagon I go and perhaps take in an AA meeting.