You're on a "mission" right now. That is to get into recovery and stay in recovery. This mission trumps all the others. What kind of a "mission" would it be if you were to relapse? What good would that do anybody? Let go of this "mission" where the "missionaries" drink all evening! The last thing this world needs is drunken missionaries! And if you were to relapse while undertaking "missionary" responsibilities what impression would that create on people you wanted to help?
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