Keeping in fit spiritual condition is working 10, 11 and 12 on a regular basis.
Especially the 5 parts of the 10th. Step. My biggest enemy is "smug complacency."
My best weapon against it is the Maintenance Steps, that's why they are called that.
I know if I stop working them the day will come when the "strange mental blank spot"
will prevent me from seeing the truth in the matter of drink. The school of hard knocks
taught me that lesson the hard way !!!
It also taught me to work each step to the best of my ability and turn the rest over
to HP, I let him be my "pacemaker" and he knew I needed to do the Steps on STAT.
The feelings you are experiencing, Grungehead, are there for a reason. We each have motivators and I believe they are instilled when HP is trying to move us to a point
where we will grow enough to experience a psychic change sufficient to recover from alcoholism. The steps were designed for that purpose. However you work them, give
it your best shot - you are on a life and death mission.
Finally, don't forget the Maintenance Steps for the BB tells us that the recovery process
will go on for the rest of our life.