I've had the same problems here in UK! I've been to some horrible meetings with horrible people!! I've come out feeling worse than when I went in. I've been getting to any I can though.
I've got a list of meetings and I'm making it my mission to tick them all off my to-do list, and new meeting everyday until I find one that fits me. Then at the very least I am trying.
Someone asked me if I'd go to any length to stay sober, and the answer for me is yes. So I'm going to keep going.
I traveled outside of my area about an hours drive away and found a good meeting! I'm a bit gutted they are so far away, but I might try to do that sometimes and try to speak to them there as they might have advice. I'm going to keep going to what ever I can for a bit because everyone says you've got to keep going as things will get better. So I'm holding onto that hope that I might be ok one day if I keep going. :0)
The world and my head is messed up
