you admit you are afraid of going
in step 4 you should have learned a tool for that fear.
It is simple
We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear.
Perhaps there is a better way-we think so. For we are now on a different basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.
We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear.
prayer is the tool,and right action after the prayer is another tool
this text below works,and I have used it many times
Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.
get your thinking right and you will do fine