Thanks everyone for your posts. I went to bed after posting that last night but I'll tell ya...I woke up feeling the same. There's a meeting in less than an hour that I'll be taking myself to. And a scheduled a massage appt for 2 hours after that. Having immense shoulder/neck pain...due to a strenuous job that I sit on a computer for 8 to 10 hours a day at. Man that really screws up my body, I never understood chronic pain until this last year trying so hard to get sober with nothing to numb out everything.
Someone mentioned journaling, I haven't done any of that lately...good idea. I also have been without a sponser for several weeks after my relapse after 4 months sober as she & I parted ways after her having some personal issues and pressuring me for a job.
I've just been getting a few days here & there since then. Haven't been able to keep it together.
Well I just keep trying. I have 5 days.