I know that roller coaster. I was on it last night too.
Last night I wanted to hide. I wanted to do what I have always done and make it go away, which it does not go away, it just gets buried. Facing the emotions and the hurt sucks but there is no way around it.
I have to ride the train but I can tell you it is a better train then the one I was on. At least this train stops now and then and lets me rest and gives me some peace. The other train did not. This train is going up hill, slowly, but it moves. The other train did not. This train has wonderful supportive people on it. The other train only had me on it and it was very lonely.
I could go on but I think you see the difference. The train may suck at times but if you compare trains, I think the sobriety train is the one to stick with
