Originally Posted by
AlexaDaly 
It's only been a little over 2 weeks being sober and I'm already forgetting how bad it had gotten when I had that threshold moment and realized I had to quit for good.
In her book "Drinking, a love story", Caroline Knapp says: "No matter how sickening the hangover, how humiliating the drunken behavior, how dangerous the blind-drunk drive home, we seem incapable of recalling consistently or clearly how bad things got when we drank. At certain times, when the need or desire to drink becomes too strong, those memories simply evaporate."
That scares the living freaking hell out of me!
She then goes on to say: "AA offers a solution. The fellowship--the meetings and stories and friendships formed--help alcoholics counter that flaw of selective memory, help us remember what it was like to drink, what happened to us, and how others like us changed when they stopped."
That's why I'm going to keep coming here to SR.
I find it therapeutic to post your own story in the alcoholic stories area of the forum, and be as brutally honest as you can be. Then you can go back and read it anytime your AV starts messing with you thinking, making you think "Maybe things weren't that bad" or " I can control myself now". Recognize that as the addiction talking and learn to pay it no attention. You can do it, I have faith in you.