Originally Posted by
Mark75 
Make an escape plan, and use it if it gets to be too much.
Get this done. It will give you some experience and build confidence. We don't stop living and having fun and being close to the ones we love. And those crazy thoughts is just that alcoholism thing, you know? Learn to dismiss them, let them go, don't engage them. I think adding a little AVRT to our AA for times like these is not a bad thing.
I really like what Mark75 says here, those crazy thoughts are just alcoholism, plain and simple. We're alcoholics, we think about alcohol...A LOT!! And I hear it gets better with more time, but for right now, the thoughts still come out of years of habit. It's what you do with the thoughts that's important.
Use your program tools, keep it simple, call your sponsor, leave before you're ready to leave, treat yourself well. You can do this!!