Hey there...you're much further down the sober road than I, but I'm fairly certain that recovery is a process to be worked through and I guess it takes time to get your "sea legs" so to speak. You ever notice that a new job or business takes about 2 years of "learning curve" before you start breathing easier? I'm thinking recovery is a new full time job, so not that I know as I'm not where your at, I'm going to guess that your still early in recovery and that what you are dealing with is...completely normal. Sorry... I don't have any insight on how to deal with it tho..lol.