I'm with cbsmith on this one. Forget about the word "forever." There's no benefit in deciding today what you'll be doing five years down the line, aside from being an impossible thing to accomplish in the first place. If you've stayed sober today it's because you've been making that right decision since you woke up; not because you'd planned it a week ago, yes?
As to whether or not you're normal or a freak. When I get those fears it helps me to look to others. Do you think that I'm an abnormal freak, for instance? (Rhetorical question, don't go hurting my feelings
) I'm an alcoholic. Assuming most the people who reply here are too. If this entire site isn't full of freaks then either you're not one either, or you're some unique, special case unlike every other addict here.