Hi Invictus,
I have those rushing thoughts too, so you're not alone. Try to lose the word "forever" from your vocabulary. It's irrelevant, if you think about it. Today you're not going to drink or use drugs. You don't have to worry about tomorrow, that's not here yet. I know it's kind of scary, it is for all of us, I think. So keep coming on here and try to get yourself to a meeting, when I found one I liked it really helped. Good luck, you're doing great.
Brian