anxiety, doubts creep in
I was doing great. I am on Day 9. Last night after a meeting I started to feel some serious anxiety. Some of it is from social anxiety which I suffer. It was a big group. I sat next to some dude that creeped me out too.
Those things triggered the thoughts that have always gotten me in the past: I think I am overreacting. I am not like these people. I am definitely not this bad.....
I am still sober and still committed to attending meetings, but last night was the toughest night yet. I thought about how a beer would make me feel better after that meeting. I dismissed it which I am proud of, but it was a reminder that the battle has just begun.
I hate the ups and downs of all of this.