Well I went to a second meeting and this time it was a lot less crowded. A guy there for probation I guess said to the guy next to me, " I am not holding your hand me, no way." The negative energy in the room really bothered me because earlier I was at a state park wading in a river and walking on trails. At one point I sat by a creek and just watched some mosquito hawks and listened to the birds and felt very grateful to be alive on this planet. So I think I will commune with nature everyday and maybe go to meetings. I want to go out tonight and I am bored so I guess I will go walking. Why in the hell do I still want to drink? I think going out drinking is the only way I can meet a girlfriend. I cannot even talk to girls now for some reason. Soon I have to go back to class and teach, so I want to party some while I still I can. It does feel good to be free of cigarettes. Who knew they smelled so bad?