Flicka, sorry that the only Alanon meeting in your area is such a bad one. Maybe try this site
http://www.al-anon.org/electronic-meetings to see if you can get a telephone or online meeting? If you're having a hard time reading the listings, use this link instead
http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/pdf/ENGLISHforWEB.pdf
Alanon is a great source of the support you need so much right now, as are the SR forums. Glad you found your way here. Welcome.