welcome, crimson!
i started with beer. then wine. then vodka along with the beer and the wine. i was drinking in the mornings, driving to work drunk then topping up with sneaky premix vodkas at lunchtime. it impacted on my work as i travelled a lot, and hey, you can get a beer at the airport at 6am!
my drinking was a major factor in my breakdown last year. i was on the verge of being fired. i made a bad judgement call with a colleague and my husband found out. i went in-patient for a month but was secretly drinking smuggled in alcohol on the unit.
i finally quit 16 days ago. please, let this be your time to quit. don't risk losing everything like i did.