Originally Posted by
nomis 
This is no solution or easy answer. The most common one you'll probably get here is you have to want to be sober more than you want to drink. Take a little bit of time and think about that really hard. Took me 18 years to get to that place. Once I did not drinking was pretty easy.
All the best and congrats on Day 1!
Thank you and, you're right. The thing is I really thought I had done it last time and maybe that was a mistake; to believe my work was done... It's gonna be life long and I gotta accept it. It's so hard to say I will NEVER drink again. But I know I can't, it will never work.