For REAL this time!!!
This. Has. Got. To. Stop. I had a few solid months completely dry. It was amazing. I even shared on here a little. I felt awesome every day. My performance vibe went from "drunk entertainment" back to "professional musician". How the monkey did I let this creep back up on me!? It started (of course) with just one beer with some friends. Then a week later a few. Then days later I was smashed. Then I was smashed 3 days outta the week. Now I'm back to just totally giving in at every opportunity. Golf. Music. It's all a reason to drink!
Here is my question: how do I make myself understand, deeply, as if it is a profound law of the universe, that I WILL NEVER be able to moderate, alcohol is ruining everything and there is absolutely no need for it. I am so sick of having "recovery" days where I just bum out and don't get anything done cause I'm hungover. And even more sick of treating the hangover with more "medicine". Pathetically, some of my friends have even started calling it that...
Day 1. This. Has. To. Stop.