DecadesEnd, that has been my problem as welll knowing I'm all he's got and struggling with the guilt. I guess for me it got to the point where I knew I wouldn't make it if I stayed in the relationship out of guilt. At some point, you just have to take care of yourself. I'm more at peace with the feeling and the guilt comes and goes but I push it away. He's made a concious choice to keep on drinking and not get any help or discuss it at all. Time does make things better and as you focus more on your happiness and what you need in your life, I think the guilt will fade.