Hi Fedup, Go! It took me about four months to get there, and I was crying before they'd even started the first meeting. But I was so glad I went. I haven't gone back to that particular meeting, but they were warm & welcoming and I knew I belonged there. I've had nights where I've made up excuses to not go, but I tell myself "go, you won't regret it." If it helps, tell someone you are going to go so you feel you have someone else to be accountable to - it can even be us here. Is there a good friend or close family member that could attend the first meeting with you for support? Follow the old Nike slogan - just do it!