Congratulations on your progress TheKl0wn
As far as feeling guilty, everyone here (and at AA) has been where you are now.
I was too, but I kept on drinking, for years, and ended up with my own war story.
But....Alcoholism's not a war where the guy with the most medals win...I really wish I had less medals...I think everyone here would.
but we all run our own race - it's not your fault I nearly drank myself to death - how could it be?
Stop feeling guilty - it's just another way your inner addict is trying to pull back on your momentum.
Be proud you're dealing with this now, not after you lose everything
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