Originally Posted by
ivehadenoughnow 
Those are all great questions to analyze who is behind the beast, but ultimately can't it just be that we want to numb things for a bit? For me I like to drink a bunch of wine to get numb and unwind. There is no deep meaning behind it, just a pure selfish desire to numb up. Maybe in my case that is all there is to the beast, I guess it is different for each person. What I will say is I know it is a "net-loss" but I do it anyways.
The beast is nothing more than pure selfish desire. That is all it is. IMO
And
you sound so much like me 3 months ago. Now the thought of "getting numb to unwind" seems ludicrous. I see it as a brief period of enjoyment (maybe the first 3 hours of drinking are...
) but, the price I have to pay for that 3 hours is
SHEER hell. Hangover, panic, and not even knowing what the hell I did the night before. Self-hatred in its purest form.... yep sounds like fun.