Well, if you are looking at it from an AVRT standpoint, then all this "I" want oblivion, "I" want to run from emotions, etc....only means that the beast has gotten a hold of the pronouns. That's when sh*t can get hairy.
IHEN, yes, I believe you are exactly correct....no deep meaning behind it, just a pure selfish desire to numb up. Indeed.
No one ever anywhere is completely comfortable with what they are feeling at all times. So isn't it interesting that some people use that as an excuse to cop a good buzz, yet others don't? Hmmmmmm