Welcome to SR Mark. This is a wonderful place for support, where we all understand how you're feeling.
I was in my 50's too when I finally stopped. What had once been fun and a way to cope had become a necessity. Alcohol made me confrontational & self-destructive. In the end, I was drinking 24/7 & totally dependent on it. I never imagined I could get free of it and not miss it every day - but it happened. I could never go back to that old, sick life. It feels great to be free. Glad you are here!
