My thoughts and prayers are with you Venus. Hoping time has begun to heal your feelings. I'm sure your mum is smiling down on you. Please believe me when I tell you, all will be OK. Wow Melissa thanks for sharing your current situation. I found something you said that hits home and I never thought of the way I drank that way but it is true when you say "its easier for me not to drink than it is for me to stop drinking once I've started." Hoping to get some feedback on this. No matter the scenario in my life; I seem to always fear the worse when the outcome of a situation I have to deal with is unknown. It has had to of come from the negative residual of booze. And something I have a desire to change about me. I want to be a more positive and optimistic person. Please feel free to jump in and share. Hey - what do you know 2 weeks sober already. Stay Sober amigos and amigas.