I am 74 days....not easy days every day. I recently went several places in which I'd normally drink and it was my first time where I did not go to at least one or two meetings a week.
I went to a convention at a casino. I don't gamble but there was a cash bar being set up. After a couple of meetings there was a reception. Luckily I didn't stay for that...although I knew I wouldn't drink. I was reminded that last year I really tied one on. Some of my "buddies" still had pictures. I was even denied entry into a bar on Bourbon Street! Bourbon Street---so I must've been very drunk. I know I was because I don't remember that weekend. I blacked out.
Next place was vacation to Memphis. Beale Street is much like Bourbon St. The atmosphere didn't phase me. But I was wary of what I ate. I remember wanting a steak at a particular restaurant and shying away from it due to the whiskey used as a marinade. I am fond of the taste and therefore thought I'd better not.
There will be a day when you might feel better and more at ease. Just look beyond the first drink to the consequences that have come in the past.