Originally Posted by
kode 
@all thanks I needed that.
@MIRecovery: No I don't have a sponsor. I disconnected from my sponsor and left the rooms about a year ago. I also stop working the 12 steps. Today I download the Big Book and found this website with the hope to start all over again.
This is the horrible thing about alcoholism, we never get over it. "Half measures availed us nothing." Our disease tells us we're okay we don't need AA we don't need sponsors we don't need steps. Slowly but surely we were revert back to our old thinking and the lure of alcohol becomes too much and we relapse.
I honestly believe that working the program of AA is the easier softer way.