Welcome Nitetaxi. It's great to have you here with us.
I was so afraid to see what a sober life would be like. I had no choice but to quit though - I was facing total destruction if I didn't. I thought I'd be losing something, but I was really gaining a whole new way of living. You don't need it the way you've convinced yourself you do. You can have a beautiful new life without it. We are here to support you.