You need to start a new thread. This one, entitled "
Relapse," seems to be a self fulfilling prophecy. Call the new one, "
I'm not ever going to drink again."
Originally Posted by
stubbs 
I k ow I can enjoy these things sober but I just don't know how right now
We alcoholics want to be gratified right now and nothing is going to stand in our way. Drinking is a fast fix for self gratification. Sobriety isn't. Don't expect to enjoy all your old activities sober right away. But if you stay sober, you will. First comes the sobriety, then comes the enjoyment. That's the order of things. Accept it, or continue to struggle and drink. And everytime you drink you are pushing the times you can enjoy sober farther and farther down the road.