AW, I don't want to read too much into your post, but I think it might be helpful to ask yourself what you're seeking right now?
I have often found that when people say things like "don't worry about me" what they really mean is "please worry about me".
Maybe that isn't the case for you, but if it is, it might be good for you to try thinking about what needs you are feeling and how you can ask for them directly.
Again, please excuse me if I'm overstepping, I only know that it took me a long time to learn how to express my needs directly. I would do things like not call friends to see how long it would take them to call me, or go away for the weekend without telling anyone to see if anyone noticed. It made me unhappy and never elicited the responses I hoped for. Learning how to recognize my needs and express them directly has made me a lot happier.