Scott, I was a regular member of AA until a couple of weeks before my lapse. I attended a meeting a day, called my sponser every day, and was working the steps. At some point, my disease said I didn't need to go any more, and I listened. It was coming....I should have seen it from a mile away. I stopped living a day at a time. I wasn't doing enough to stay sober, just going through the motions. Live and learn, and pain is a great teacher.