I'm not big noting myself.
Not knowing how to live sober, or not wanting to live sober, was a big thing for me for years and most times it led me back to drinking.
In the end, for me the key was building a sober life I really loved and didn't want to screw up...
I dunno what that would entail for you but for me I needed a sense of purpose.
I found eventually that not only did I no longer miss drinking, or resent others, I actually preferred being sober.
Yeah it was a lot of work and a little time to get there, but it was worthwhile work.
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