Lexie- I feel the same way about not having my family there. Though they are loving and supportive and overall great people, I am going to face this one alone. I think the birth will be more of a mourning than an exciting event. I didn't want to be pregnant again and took active steps to not be. Funny how the world has a way of suprising you sometimes. My kids are my world, so I know I will be in love once I see him, but I'm not excited or joyous about him coming.