Very good thread for me today. It isn't the 'I'm bad' that does me in it is the 'I should's" When it comes to my family the "I should's" are going to be the death of me, especially when there are multiple people with poor boundaries. There is no stopping. They will suck me dry of every last ounce of energy, time, emotion, myself and my kids will pay the price, until I collapse and then they will back away and tell me what I did wrong and why I'm collapsing while telling everyone else they rescued me and thank god for them.
I'm teetering on the ledge. I need to find the strength to verbalize those boundaries and then hold to them when the I should's and guilt trips come hailing down.
Sometimes I think it would be so much easier to just be ALONE and far away from all family.