Can I move on?
This is so hard! I just want to call him, but know I can't. It has just been a month since my ABF of three years got drunk and angry again, threw a glass at me, that hit me in the head. I know I did the right thing by giving a statement to the police, but I still feel so guilty and ashamed. Part of his family blames me, my family doesn't understand, and I feel so alone. He can be so great . . . when he is sober. That is the man I fell in love with! I didn't know how bad his addiction was at the start of our relationship because he was on the road a lot .... before his DUI. For the past year and half I have been taking care of him, enabling him, lying for him, supporting him financially and now that he is gone I am really struggling with filling in my time, especially on the weekends when I normally would be dealing with his drinking all weekend. I miss the sober part of him so much, and don't know how to move on. I am trying to be strong, but I feel so alone.