I'm of the mind that hating ourselves got us to the bottom of the bottle in the first place. You're here..and that's awesome. This is my 3rd go here at SR...and I did NOT have the courage to come back here after the disaster the first 2 times. Shame kept me away...and kept me drinking. I slipped back into denial and hiding from myself and others.
I'm impressed you came right back. Stronger than I was....I think that's progressive..not failure.