It's hard to accept some of the changes that we have to make in early recovery. I was a crafty alcoholic too, though I drank at home, but was always focused on hiding my drinking from my family.
The thing is, you weren't the person you were putting out there for the people in the bar to see. That wasn't the real you. Now, you can find the real person who was hiding behind the alcohol and get to know and love her.