Originally Posted by
Midlifecrisis 
Not sure of the plan. Let myself feel as someone said above and just stop.
Dee if I tell him he will leave. That is not an option.
Maybe you need some professional help outside of what you are doing now to get this to work. You dont always have to feel the way you do now, its the addiction that is holding you down, making you feel low, and thinking you hate sobriety. Your husband may leave, but what sort of relationship are you in where you cant be honest with one another?